Again, it has been a long time since my last post. Life just gets the better of you sometimes, that and Molly seems to be preparing for her future within the SAS torture team. Her sleep deprivation tactics are amongst the best in the world ha-ha! In all seriousness, we have had an up and down couple of months with health and sleeping.
We are co-sleepers at the best of times. Yes, Molly is in her big bed now, which means she is able to get out of bed and come into ours. Most nights she lasts until anywhere from 2am to 4am, but in recent weeks she has managed to sleep the whole night through in her own big bed quite a few times. However, we have both been quite sick and she has been all over the place, literally! She is like a raver on acid at some wild dance party, that's how much she moves.
The other night she decided that 4:20am was a good time to start the day with intense screaming. I got up and tried to soothe her, but she wasn't having a bar of it. So we got up and caught up on my TV shows. She fell asleep on me for a short period of time and I tried to go back to bed with her at 6am, but as soon as we touched down in the bed she lost her mind. So up we got and made lunch for daddy and pancakes for breakfast. I was exhausted I thought I was going to pass out. However, as I write this I must point out that Molly is currently asleep in her own bed and has been for about 2 hours. Fingers crossed she manages to do the whole night.
I have to say that I love being a mother, and right now I am really enjoying Molly and all the crazy that comes with her. I am feeling a touch of pressure at the moment as so many women around me are popping out a second baby, but for me I just can't even entertain the thought right now. I love Molly being the centre of attention and I love watching her grow and take on the world around her. I'm not ready to give up my time with Molly and introduce another child into the mix. I'm just having so much fun with her at the moment. I would also like her to be more independent and definitely out of nappies before considering another baby. Basically, I don't want to procreate just for the sake of procreation. I want to enjoy my motherhood while I have it and while Molly will still kiss me and cuddle me. But that's just me, is that selfish? I don't know, all I know is my baby brings me so much joy and happiness, even when she's being horrid, and I just want to enjoy her in all her glory. I'm having the time of my life.
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